Variations on a Millstone

Variations on a Millstone #1
George Nocuchi 1962
gray granite and artist’s wood/painted steel

Forever holding up the stones
are we not all
forever holding memories
that we do not release
until the time of death ,sweet, death-
do we carry them beyond

2) There is the woman whom we always
see walking away
whether she walks away from us
or was never with us
to walk away from
is immaterial and irrelevant
and our objections were never even heard
certainly not sustained
what is relevant is that we carry
her image with us forever
as the one unattainable
or unreattainable Celeste
that would of meant true ecstasy-
we know we are guilty of dreamery
but we have certainly been convicted for less
of less
and have done more
with much less conviction
and have done more
much more deserving
of conviction

3) Then there is the High School moment
maybe it was College
maybe early workplace
maybe a day in the street
a night in the bar
where a stand could of been taken
and one sat and thought instead
not finding the exact right combination of words
of phrases, of artfully constructed-
and you did not react to talk of war
of “blacks getting everything”
of “immigrants spoiling America”
of the real problem being gay marriage
as long as gays don’t get married,
we will have high paying jobs and
full medical and all our wives will love us
and all our teams will win-

4) Maybe it’s only the words
unwrit, the paper not spoiled by paint,
the guitar unplucked, the clay unshaped, the song unsung-
so death years later
the mights have not been
though the nights have been
the possibilities are now ended
and we need assistment with our living
dreams lie in past
the schedule is only meals
none of us will ever be famous!
but, like I told my daughter,
we won’t be carrying that millstone
up yon mountain
for the what we didn’t do.

Bob Small 4-22-05

not revised but reviewed

About bobsmall1

Bob Small has read at Bacchanal, Barnes and Noble, Borders, The Booksource (Swarthmore), The Clark Park Festivals,Community College of Philadelphia Highwire Gallery, The Mad Poets Annual Food Fest Reading, The Middle East Restaurant, Nexus GalleryThe Painted Bride Arts Center, The Philadelphia Ethical Society, Robin's Bookstore The University of Pennsylvania and also in New York City, Trenton, NJ, Washington, DC, and in many Delaware Valley Venues. He is the author of numerous chapbooks, including El Otro Lado (with Maralyn Lois Polak), On watching America Die, Small Steps and Toes (with Lamont B. Steptoe), and The Unapoet. This is his first Reading in over a year. Bob Small was Founder and President of the two decades old Poets and Prophets, which presented Poetry Readings in both Delaware County and Philadelphia. Bob was the Chair of The Delaware County Green Party and was the First Green Party Candidate in Delaware County (2005). He was also a Green Party National Delegate, among other duties. He is the Founder and Facilitator of The Pennsylvania Ballot Access Coalition (PaBac), which is a Coalition of both Independents and Third Parties., seeking to legislatively improve Pennsylvania's Ballot Access Laws. (Facebook) Bob is also a founding member and Facilitator of Democracy Unplugged, and Delco Debates, which has presented Independent and Third Party Forums in Delaware County since 2004. Facebook) He was formerly involved with Cinema Resistance, and Delco Pledge of Resistance. Bob currently lives in Swarthmore with his wife and their menagerie of animals. He is currently focused on writing a Novel and organizing his Poetry, which he posts on his Blog (Bob Small1). He is retired from most of the above activities, except Delco Debates and Poets and Prophets, which he may return to.
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