Exhilaration-The Wintering this year 6&7

Rachel Constantine

The exhilarating yet excruciating pursuit

of the true self

charcoal

The title is longer

than the painting

of the woman with attack eyes

who reminds me of that woman long ago

who I brushed into in the shadow of a

drunken South Broad Street night

saying “Excuse me Mister”

with too much menace for even me

That was when I had the courage of whiskey

and the brashness of beer

but her purr scared me

back when I usually didn’t know fear

back when “he’s out of town tonight”

was good enough to get me’ over

back when a woman full or rumors

was all I needed for intrigue

back when all I wanted was action and adventure

but I backed away from her

back then

Later that week

I went back on that same concrete

but she was gone

only her vapors remained

under the street nights

Now I know

where her eyes went

In my second fifty years

I will continue to write Poems noone hears

read Poems

noone sees

create Poems

that only a misanthrope could love

and where is my cabin in the wild Montana

Lately I’ve begun plays again

So more of the world will not know me

And I can be wild, naked, and free

                       wild naked and free

like our nights together

when we were both way too young

and thought age was a disease

we would

somehow

never catch.

About bobsmall1

Bob Small has read at Bacchanal, Barnes and Noble, Borders, The Booksource (Swarthmore), The Clark Park Festivals,Community College of Philadelphia Highwire Gallery, The Mad Poets Annual Food Fest Reading, The Middle East Restaurant, Nexus GalleryThe Painted Bride Arts Center, The Philadelphia Ethical Society, Robin's Bookstore The University of Pennsylvania and also in New York City, Trenton, NJ, Washington, DC, and in many Delaware Valley Venues. He is the author of numerous chapbooks, including El Otro Lado (with Maralyn Lois Polak), On watching America Die, Small Steps and Toes (with Lamont B. Steptoe), and The Unapoet. This is his first Reading in over a year. Bob Small was Founder and President of the two decades old Poets and Prophets, which presented Poetry Readings in both Delaware County and Philadelphia. Bob was the Chair of The Delaware County Green Party and was the First Green Party Candidate in Delaware County (2005). He was also a Green Party National Delegate, among other duties. He is the Founder and Facilitator of The Pennsylvania Ballot Access Coalition (PaBac), which is a Coalition of both Independents and Third Parties., seeking to legislatively improve Pennsylvania's Ballot Access Laws. (Facebook) Bob is also a founding member and Facilitator of Democracy Unplugged, and Delco Debates, which has presented Independent and Third Party Forums in Delaware County since 2004. Facebook) He was formerly involved with Cinema Resistance, and Delco Pledge of Resistance. Bob currently lives in Swarthmore with his wife and their menagerie of animals. He is currently focused on writing a Novel and organizing his Poetry, which he posts on his Blog (Bob Small1). He is retired from most of the above activities, except Delco Debates and Poets and Prophets, which he may return to.
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