In the hotel swimming pool in Virginia 1 to 5

This was something I have thought about.
This was three years ago and
most of the Poems do not need a change.

In the Hotel Swimming Pool (Old Men)

There were young girls
bronze and lighter
with young boys
same same
Old men notice this
but not too deeply

There were mothers
with children
a yell and a shriek
Old men remember
But not too far back

There were guys going out
to tag a smoke
and maybe else
old men wouldn’t be old men
if these times weren’t memories

There were young girls
showing lots of skin
for young men

Bob Small 2-27-11 from 10-1 as was
revised slightly 2-2-2014

In the Hotel Swimming Pool #2

Most nights
these women would not even be fantasies
Maybe their daughters
their older daughters
who might be reviewing my fantasies

Most nights
I wouldn’t wonder
How their wet bathing suited bodies
would greet my naked hairy skin
Most nights

Most nights
I wouldn’t know the words to hello
for reasons of not complicating my life
for reasons of this being only one night
and the next time being never

Most nights
I wouldn’t even think these thoughts
let alone write them
Most nights I am not alone
Let alone feel alone

Most nights


In the Hotel Swimming Pool #3

I want to be dreaming
and not here
I want to be dreaming
and not of here
and not of her
and not of any of these hers
as they do not, surely, dream of me

I want to pack up my dreams
take them away
not that, I should add,
that I am too old
for these dreams
not that these women do not
have perfect bodies
as mine is imperfected
not that we could not relate on any
level but the physical
not meta physical or intellectual or
any shared experience
flesh is shared experience
and more than enough

I do not want these dreams
because I only want dreams
that are possible
that might…

Of course this is a lie
I do want these dreams

I do want these dreams
enough to write them
enough to dream them
enough to ….

Bob Small 2-27-11

In the Hotel Swimming Pool #5

It was a cold night in Virginia
I stood in the pool
then the whirlpool
it was warm there
as I tried not to listen
tried not to look

I remember snow on the ground
but this was October
not possible
I remember rounded bodies
sharp in some ways
not that I was looking
It was a cold night in Virginia
the young guys kept poking outside
I the only one I
looking at the daughters mothers
closely longingly

At a certain time
not too quickly
not too easily

I remember I was myself only there
after exercising
wife upstairs
bloody well know that
just as well that

At a certain time
not too quickly
not too easily
of whom I was
whom I wasn’t

whom I wanted to be and remain
Is a hard thing to lose

Bob Small 2-27-11

About bobsmall1

Bob Small has read at Bacchanal, Barnes and Noble, Borders, The Booksource (Swarthmore), The Clark Park Festivals,Community College of Philadelphia Highwire Gallery, The Mad Poets Annual Food Fest Reading, The Middle East Restaurant, Nexus GalleryThe Painted Bride Arts Center, The Philadelphia Ethical Society, Robin's Bookstore The University of Pennsylvania and also in New York City, Trenton, NJ, Washington, DC, and in many Delaware Valley Venues. He is the author of numerous chapbooks, including El Otro Lado (with Maralyn Lois Polak), On watching America Die, Small Steps and Toes (with Lamont B. Steptoe), and The Unapoet. This is his first Reading in over a year. Bob Small was Founder and President of the two decades old Poets and Prophets, which presented Poetry Readings in both Delaware County and Philadelphia. Bob was the Chair of The Delaware County Green Party and was the First Green Party Candidate in Delaware County (2005). He was also a Green Party National Delegate, among other duties. He is the Founder and Facilitator of The Pennsylvania Ballot Access Coalition (PaBac), which is a Coalition of both Independents and Third Parties., seeking to legislatively improve Pennsylvania's Ballot Access Laws. (Facebook) Bob is also a founding member and Facilitator of Democracy Unplugged, and Delco Debates, which has presented Independent and Third Party Forums in Delaware County since 2004. Facebook) He was formerly involved with Cinema Resistance, and Delco Pledge of Resistance. Bob currently lives in Swarthmore with his wife and their menagerie of animals. He is currently focused on writing a Novel and organizing his Poetry, which he posts on his Blog (Bob Small1). He is retired from most of the above activities, except Delco Debates and Poets and Prophets, which he may return to.
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